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"To Jesus Through Mary"
A Monthly Newsletter Compiled by Mary's Children, Inc.
August 2008
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Ruth Ann stopped receiving Messages to share from the Blessed Virgin Mary on January 25, 1995. On February 23, 1995, Jesus also stopped giving Messages to share. Since that time both Jesus and Mary have requested that we begin to reread the Messages already given and to reflect on them. But most of all, that we begin to live the Messages that have been given.

Message of November 11, 1993,from Our Lord Jesus

Ruth Ann:  Jesus.

Jesus:  My child, I am here.

Ruth Ann:  Many thoughts are going through my mind, but I keep remembering what was read at prayer group last night from the book 'God Calling' on November 7.  I felt that particular message was for me.

Jesus:  Little one, that message is for all My children, and yes, you are one of My children, are you not?

Ruth Ann:  Lord, do You realize the dilemma I am put in?  Many come to the farm to pray, but I don't feel I am to walk out and say, "Here I am."  That only encourages a distraction.  At least, that is the way I see it.

Jesus:  Child, you are right about not calling attention to yourself, because the main reason for this farm now, is for those to come to gain peace.  But you have been given a gift, and as I have said before, it is a gift to be shared.  Those who ask for prayer are to receive prayer, but you have set a special time for that, and those who expect prayer must understand this.  You have said you are available most Saturday's after prayer group, and every third Sunday after prayer group.  These times are sufficient for the time being, but you do know that the numbers will grow, and your weekends will be consumed with people in need of prayer.  This is not something you wish to hear child, but it is something that is to be.  You have been told this many months ago by My Mother, and as time goes on, you will see how all will come about. 

This irritates you little one, because you do not feel that your prayers should be important to other people.  They should be able to pray to Me and My Mother here on this farm, without need of you.  They can and do, but it is also true that you are a channel through which the water of life flows through.  You are My instrument.  You are their connection from Heaven to the earth.

Ruth Ann:  But Lord, that does not sound right.

Jesus:  In what way, child?

Ruth Ann:  I mean, they can pray straight to You or Your Mother, without me being present.

Jesus:  As I have said, this is true.  But if you had been told that a certain person has a gift from Heaven, and was speaking with our Lord and His Mother, wouldn't you wish prayers of that person?

Ruth Ann:  I don't know as I would wish prayers of that person, but I suppose I would be in awe of their gift.  Maybe even a little envious, but I am more interested in those who get to see You or Your Mother, since I have never been given that gift.

Jesus:  Little one, you have not as yet had an apparition from Me, but the time will come when you will no longer be able to say this.

Ruth Ann:  So why are You waiting so long to do so?

Jesus:  You have been told by Me and My Mother that you will see Her at the time of your death.  She will be there to walk you into the Kingdom of Heaven.  I will come to you after all of your children are settled, and then you will receive a complete healing, but you will be asked to carry a very heavy cross.  The cross is one I have carried, and others after Me, too, have carried this cross. 

You are being prepared, child.  Trust in God.  He knows your limits, your strengths, and weaknesses.  You have growing to do, you have things to do in the meantime.  And you have been given this year with your family, and time to do some of the things you have not been able to do when you were teaching.  Enjoy your respite, little one.  The time is coming when there will be little time for anyone, or anything, but Me.  That is God's will, and His will, will be done.

Ruth Ann:  I know I have been told these things, but it was so long ago, I had forgotten.  I guess I had just put it out of my mind.

Jesus:  Little one, it was set aside because it was something that was not relevant to that particular time in your life.  Now, it is becoming apparent to you that changes are taking place in your life.

Ruth Ann:  Lord, I visited school today.  That is, the school where I taught last year.  I was there for a breakfast for a retiring teacher.  Do You think I will ever go back to teaching, in school, that is?

Jesus:  Little one, you have been told you will be teaching, but in a different capacity.  Let's just leave it at that for the time being.  God has much for you to do.  Know that, and be ready and willing to do His will, and not your own.  You were a teacher for many years, and will continue to be so until the day you die.  Once a teacher, always a teacher, but there are different forms of teaching.  God wishes you to be teaching on behalf of His kingdom, so you must wait and see what He has in store.  Patience, little one.

Ruth Ann:  I've sure heard that enough, Lord.

Jesus:  It is true, child.  God will tell you what He wishes for you to do, and when.  You must be attentive to what He wishes for you to do, and also be willing and obedient.  He will take care of all the rest.  You have much to do today, go in My peace.

Ruth Ann:  Thank You, Lord.


Message of November 18, 1993, from Our Lord Jesus

Ruth Ann:  Lord.

Jesus:  Yes, little one, why are you so sad?

Ruth Ann:  Lord, it's just a passing sadness.  I was just thinking of some of the priests I have known, and was just hoping that when they find out what is happening to me, they won't think I am doing this for notoriety, or that I have flipped out.

Jesus:  Little one, where is your trust?  Remember, you have been told from the very beginning in your message of Medjugorje, that all those who truly know you will believe, and those who choose not to, wouldn't believe if My Mother or I, Jesus, were to appear to them, so you are not to concern yourself with such. 

Ruth Ann:  It's okay, Lord, even if they don't believe.  Its just that it would be such a comfort to know that they do.  I know, Lord, there is no turning back.  Thy will be done. 

Sometimes I feel like Job, but then again, I wouldn't change back to the life before You and Your Mother began working in my life in such a mighty way.  I would be less than honest, though, if I didn't say some days I wish I could forget everything and just be me.  But that is alright too, because I know You will never send me more than I can bear.

Jesus:  This is true, child, and you do have much ahead, but there will be physical help and support in prayer by those who know you.  They have been, and are being sent into your life by One Who loves you very much.  Continue to witness to My children and witness to the good that God is doing in your life and in the lives of those who know you. 

Miracles continue to happen to those who come to you for prayer.  You do not hear of those miracles because most do not take time to let you know the good that has come through My touching their lives through you.  I thank you for allowing Me to use you as a willing vessel, child.  A vessel that lets the power of My healing touch the lives and hearts of those for whom you pray.  The things you are doing are greatly appreciated by Me and by My Mother.  The rewards are great for all those who are witnessing to the love and generosity of their Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.  Much has been done, and much will continue to be done through those such as you. 

Your cross will become more and more difficult, but know your Jesus is here, and He will not leave you at the mercy of those who would do you harm.  That is the reason for My choice of a husband for you, and the priest who has been chosen as your spiritual advisor.  These are gifts to you from Me and My Mother.  My Mother and I continue to mold your priest, as well as those around you.  You too, are being molded, as is your husband and family.  Graces and blessings continue to be poured out upon you and all those whose lives you touch in any way.  It is not your doing, but is the doing of the One Who created you.

Ruth Ann:  I take no credit, Lord.  I wouldn't have given my name through all of this, but I was told to do so. Your Mother said, "How else will they know who you are?" 

Jesus:  That is because She knew it was important for what was to come.  There are those who receive words and are asked not to share.  There are those who have been given special gifts to be shared with certain people.  Yours is given to you to be shared with all those called to listen.  The numbers will grow in leaps and bounds, little one, but you are not to fear.  All is in God's hands and has been since the beginning of time.

Now, has your sadness disappeared?

Ruth Ann:  Yes, Lord.  Thank You, Lord, for Your many blessings.  I love You so very much.

Jesus:  And I love you, little one.


Message of March 3, 1994,  from Our Lord Jesus

Ruth Ann:  Lord, I'm tired but I have this need to speak with You.
Jesus:  Little one, that desire has been placed there by Me.

Ruth Ann:  What do You wish to say?

Jesus:  Little one, your Jesus wishes to thank you for putting the feelings of others before yourself.  As you do for the very least of My children, you do unto Me.  That is what I mean by ministering to My people.  Sometimes it will be a listening ear when they feel they have no one to talk to about what has gone on in their life.  Sometimes it will be prayer, sharing My words through the messages from Me or My Mother.  Sometimes it will be through your talks.  Child, the very fact that you are listening and being obedient is of great assistance to Me and My work here on the earth.  I have told you before, when I walked on the earth, I performed many miracles.  You, My child, will do even greater things.

Ruth Ann:  Lord, how can this be possible?  You are God.  I can think of nothing greater than receiving the Eucharist or being absolved of my sins.  I can do neither.  I am not a priest, and I feel so inadequate to be of help to Your people.  I feel their pain and my heart aches for them, but I can't absolve them from their sins, or free them from their pain.

Jesus:  Little one, you do not have the gifts of a priest, this is true, but in listening, sharing, and praying with My children, you are bringing them back to Me.  For those who already are with Me, you are strengthening them with your prayer, honesty, and humility.  Little one, your peace is transferred to My children.  This peace can only come from Me.  Little one, you still do not understand just how important it is for Me to have you as a willing instrument; that you allow Me to use you here on the earth to minister to My people, is a special blessing to Me.  Many would like your gift child, but would not like to give up all you have given up in order to be used in such a way.

Ruth Ann:  Lord, You know I have, and continue to have, difficulty with all that I do for You.  Please don't make me out to be something that I am not.  I have faults and struggle through life just like all Your children who come to me seeking prayer and peace.

Jesus:  Your humility is beautiful to behold, little one.  That makes you special to Me and to others. 

Ruth Ann:  Could we please change the subject, Lord.  I love You and wish to please You, You know that.

Jesus:  Child, I know your heart, so yes, I do know these things and more.  Many of My children are brought back to Me through your obedience, little one.  Many are finding a new love for Me and for My Mother.  Some are having their faith renewed just by your example.  Continue to do as you are doing.  The graces and strength will be there for you as the need arises.

Ruth Ann:  Lord, I have no doubt of that.  I see Your miracles in my life and the lives of others contin-uously, and besides, all of this is out of my hands.  I gave, and still give it all to You.

Jesus:  That is why I am able to work through you, child.  Your faith and trust is needed for Me to be able to do all I need to do for those brought into your life.  Continue to do as I have asked, and touch the lives and hearts of all those around you.  I will do the really difficult part.  I will do the healings that are needed.

Ruth Ann:  Yes, Lord.  Just continue to strengthen me.  Do You realize just how difficult it is for me to do?  I know my faults, Lord.  For You to have me be the center of attention in prayer, or speaking with Your children, is so humiliating and embarrassing for me.  I know many times I am praying with people who are so very holy, Lord.  Please help me to do all You ask of me, so that I don't feel like a lamb being led to slaughter each time I do these things. 

Jesus:  Child, I have told you that this is all part of the dying of self.  You would not have been asked to do such as this if you had found it to be easy.  In your smallness, God can use you in a big way.  If you were not humble, and did not recognize your many weaknesses, you would not be able to help those around you.  It is through your being imperfect, and recognizing that fact, God has been able to change your heart in many ways.  You will continue to be molded and formed into the likeness of God as you continue to minister to My people. 

The more you do, the more you will grow, and the more will be asked of you.  God has His hands upon you and is watching all that you do.  He is not disappointed, child, He is pleased, and so are those that surround Him.  Continue on in this journey set before you.  God is with you and will minister to you, as you minister to His children.  Now go in My peace, little one.  Know I am with you as you do the will of My Father.

Ruth Ann:  Thank You, Lord.  I cannot ask for more than that.  I love You and Your Mother. 


Message of June 21, 1994,
from Our Lord Jesus

Ruth Ann:  Lord, I need encouraging words.  I always feel so foolish and humiliated after giving a talk or praying with lots of people.  You know I really don't like having to do this.  Since I feel this way about this, is this really something You want me to do?

Jesus:  Little one, why do you suppose you feel this way?  Even if I hadn't asked you to do these things, can you find it said anywhere that it is wrong to witness of God's good works to those around you?  So, is it wrong to pray with those in need of prayer?  You know both things are good, both are of Me, so if you are feeling to the contrary, you must realize that the evil one is trying to make you feel foolish and humil-iated, because what you are doing is of Me.  He would have you feel this way in hopes it will discourage you from continuing what I want you to do.  Realize, little one, that it will get more and more difficult as your ministry grows, because Satan and all his cohorts wishes to stop you. 

It is difficult for My children to stand steadfast and witness.  It is difficult to pray with others when you feel you are so unworthy to be standing in for Me.  Know, child, this is what I am calling you to do.  Be at peace with this, little one.  You are only an instrument.  You need not be concerned about the 'why' or 'how'.  Only be concerned about being obedient.  You want so much for each person that you touch, that you forget it is My will, not your will that this be done.  You have no control over what I choose for each person who walks in faith to receive the prayer and touch that comes from Me through you.  You need only be obedient and do what I ask of you, little one.

My children need those of you who will listen and witness to the goodness and greatness of God's love and mercy, to be available to do His will.  Please, little one, do so with love and faith.  Trust in Me, little one.  I would not have you do such as this, if there was not such a need in this day and age of darkness.  The faith and trust of My children is waning, little one.  So many wish to be in control, that they have forgotten God is the giver of all gifts, including their lives, that they waste so foolishly on frivolity. 

Little one, I know you have these feelings of unworthiness, and wish that someone else would do this, but child, it is you whom I have chosen for this task.  Your cross is feeling very heavy for you today.  I see and feel it in your heart.  Therefore I'm telling you, give it to Me, and I will carry this burden for you until you have the strength to again pick it up and follow in My footsteps.

Ruth Ann:  Lord, You have enough to carry.  I am so sorry I am putting this burden before You today, but I really don't know what else to do.

Jesus:  Little one, have I not said this to all My children, "When life gets too burdensome, come to the foot of the cross and place these burdens there.  Come to Me, and I will give you rest."  I do not wish for My children to carry more than they are able, so therefore, until you feel stronger and more at peace with what I am calling you to do, let Me help you with this burden.

Ruth Ann:  You know this is making me feel guilty, Lord.  You do so much for me, why is it so difficult for me to do these things for You?

Jesus:  There are many reasons, little one.  This is not commonplace in your world today.  Witnessing and laying on of the hands is something done in the times of My coming and ministering to God's people.  Now it is being revived in preparation for My Second Coming.  God is min-istering to His people through those whom He has chosen.  Those who are listening and being obedient are being used to pour forth His Holy Spirit.  Be grateful you are being called to be of help to those who are in need of God's peace.  Be pleased that lives are being touched because you have been given this grace.  Do not allow the evil one to degrade and bring you down. 

Be at peace, little one.  Know that because you have said 'yes', and continue to say 'yes', others are having burdens lifted from their hearts, minds, and souls.  Their burdens become lighter as yours becomes heavier.  You do not understand the importance of all you are doing.  You do not choose to, and you do not wish to.  This is to your credit.

Ruth Ann:  Lord, no, it is because I do not wish to deal with it.  I do these things because this is what You ask of me.  I wish to be obedient.  I wish no credit.  If I could, I would run away, just as the apostles did at the time of Your passion and death on the cross.  It's that I feel I have no choice, I would feel so guilty if I walked away.  On the other hand, I feel so stupid and unworthy because I don't walk away.  I feel like I'm caught between a rock and a hard place, as the saying goes.

Jesus:  Little one, you have a free will.  Many choose to walk away.  Many are called, and few are chosen. You have been tested through time. God knows your heart. Need I say more?

Ruth Ann:  No, Lord, I do feel better.  Thank You for helping me with this cross, and thank You for sending so many people into our lives to help us with all that needs to be done here on the farm.

Jesus:  God has chosen you and your family to help with the needs of His children through prayer, the farm, and your witnessing.  He will not leave you to tend to the mechanics of all that is needed to be done in order to accomplish His good works through you.  Be at peace, little one.  God loves you.  He will tend to all of your needs.  You need only be obedient and share all these gifts He has given you with others.
Ruth Ann:  Yes, Lord, I hear You.  Please help me to be strong, help me to do Your will and not let my humanness get in the way of Your desire for me and Your people.

Jesus:  Continue to listen and be obedient.  I will tend to all of the rest.


Message of July 18, 1994,
 from Our Lord Jesus

Jesus:  Thank you for praying with, and witnessing to My people.  Continue to tend to the needs of My children, little one.  It is through your willingness to be an instrument used by Me, that I am able to transform lives.  Healings continue to take place as you lay hands, witness, and share with My children.  Thank you for being here for those who are hungry for My love and the love of My Mother.  As you share and minister to My children, it is as though I am there with them, speaking with them in word and in action.  Continue to be used by Me, little one.  This is much needed in these difficult times.

Ruth Ann:  Yes, Lord.

Jesus:  Remember, I have told you, as you touch My children, I have My hands upon you.  It is as though I am touching them Myself.
Ruth Ann:  Lord, there is a powerful blessing for me as well as those who wish prayer.

Jesus:  Yes, little one, I intend for it to be so.  Accept it with humility and love.  Your faith is strong, and is constantly being rewarded through the many miracles worked in the lives of those who surround you.  Continue to be a willing vessel to be used by Me.

Ruth Ann:  Yes, Lord.

Jesus:  Now I know you have many things you must do today.  Do it with love and trust in your Jesus.  Trust in your Jesus to see you through this day.  Go in My peace.

Ruth Ann:  Thank You, Lord.


Message of October 1, 1994,  from Our Lord Jesus

Ruth Ann:  Lord, what a full week and a busy day.

Jesus:  You have much to do today.  Rather than put yourself under so much pressure, why don't you listen tomorrow?

Ruth Ann:  Lord, You are correct, but I need Your encouragement today.  We have a wedding today, and we have to leave here early.  I'd rather remain here and pray with Your people, I'll feel guilty for those who come so far seeking prayer, and then Jim and I are not here to pray with them.

Jesus:  Their good intentions will get them many graces.  My children must realize that there are times when you too, must take care of family obligations.  God knows the hearts and minds of all His children.  He will answer all prayers in His own way, and in His own time.  You will be here spiritually, joined with My children in prayer.  I will do the blessings that are needed this day.

Ruth Ann:  You do them anyway, Lord, even when I am here.

Jesus:  You are correct, child.  It is only that I am using you as an instrument through which to work, when you are here to pray with My children.  When you are not here, I tend to them in other ways.

Ruth Ann:  Thank You, Lord, now I won't feel so guilty for being gone.

Jesus:  You are never to feel guilty when something you have no control over takes you from My children.  If you were here, you would be doing everything you have been asked to do.  You listen and are obedient to the will of God.  That is of the utmost importance in being a true instrument, to spread God's word.  Your example of faith and trust does more for My children than you can possibly realize.  Your courage is needed in a time when My children are floundering and seeking ways in which to be at peace. The world is not at peace, and most of My children are not at peace.  Some who find it, lose it.  I am depending upon those of you who are willing to be of encouragement to those of My children who are most in need.

Ruth Ann:  I can't be of much encouragement if I'm not here, Lord, and I'm sorry for that.

Jesus:  Again I say to you, little one, even when you cannot be here in body, you are here in spirit.  My children are aware of all you are doing and sacrificing for the love of your Jesus and His Mother.  This draws others to make sacrifices that they would otherwise not make.  It is by example that you are doing so much for My children. 

Yes, the prayer is extremely important, but your faith has done much to boost the morale of My children who were struggling and feeling so lost.  They now have a purpose for existing.  They have a reason to awaken in the morning.  God loves them, He truly cares about each and every one.  Through your sharing of the words spoken to you, your testimony of the miracles in your life, and your stepping out in faith to do all that is asked of you, God is working.  You have en-couraged many in their faith journey, and you will continue to do so. 

I have said your ministry eventually will be changing, but the result of your ministry will never change.  More and more souls will be brought to Me through you, and the work God has put before you. Be at peace, little one.  Continue to do His will.  Know you are assisted by many of the angels and saints in Heaven.

Ruth Ann:  Thank You, Lord, for the encouraging words for me.

Jesus:  You have earned them, little one, through your love and trust in your Jesus.  Enjoy the day with your family and your extended family.

Ruth Ann:  Yes Lord, please be with us this day.


Message of February 6, 1995,  from Our Lord Jesus

Ruth Ann:  Lord, I feel this need to talk with You.

Jesus:  Little one, I am here.

Ruth Ann:  Lord, I guess I feel I need to speak with You at every opportunity, because You have said You too, would cease giving messages to share.

Jesus:  Little one, you need not be concerned.  My Mother has had ample opportunity to say those things to Her children that needed to be said.  So too, will it be the same for Me.  It is not how many times you listen, but that you listen, and record those things I would have you share.  There is no need for the guilt you carry, little one.  I will say to you again, you have shared those things that needed to be shared.  You have not abused My gift.  Those things that have needed to be shared, have been shared. 

Many would like to have used your gift so they could have known the future.  That was not your gift.  Your gift was to draw My children away from darkness, into the light.  It is important that you remember this, when the gift is no longer there. 

Ruth Ann:  Lord, You sound as though this gift is going to be removed sooner than I had anticipated.

Jesus:  Little one, the 'words to share' will soon cease, but you will not cease doing the will of God, and neither will He leave you without the comfort of the voices of Me and My Mother.  So you are not to worry.  Your burden will become heavier, but you will not be left to carry this burden alone.  It is important that you come to terms with these words.  You are being prepared for a change, little one.  You have heard these words before.  The words that have been spoken to My children, have been spoken over and over, and in many ways, through many of My children, and they have yet to be taken as seriously as they are intended.  Now it is time for these words to cease.  You will need to be the strength, for many who have depended upon these words and messages. 

You will still minister to My children, but in a different way.  You will continue to pray for, and with, My children.  The touching of the minds, hearts, bodies, and souls will not cease, little one.  That responsibility will not be lifted from you.  God has need of willing, obedient, humble vessels willing to do all that He asks of them.  You are one of those vessels, child.  Be at peace with what is being said.  This place has been chosen by God as a special place of prayer.  It is a refuge for those of My children who believe it to be blessed and holy.  Many graces and miracles are given here, and they will continue, even though the words and messages will cease.  Many conversions take place here, and this will continue to be the case, but in greater and greater numbers.

Little one, you need not understand what is being said.  You say, "How can this be?"  Little one, it will be done through the grace and mercy of God, just as all things have been done thus far.  You can do nothing without this special grace and gift given to you from the Most High God.  You could not have started a prayer group, or brought about the numbers who come together out of reverence for Me and My Mother.  None of this could have been done by you.  You have the hand of God upon you.  You have received His light and special grace to do His will.  You need only listen, and continue to be open to all that He asks you to do.  Remember these words little one, 'it will all be done for you'.  This did not only mean physical things, but spiritual as well.  The 'all will be done for you', is through the grace of God.

Now, if He has seen to all these things that have brought you this far, will He not tend to those things that are to come?  You have been told that you are to experience change.  The changes have been coming since your 'yes', and they will continue.  Be at peace with what has been said to you.  You have the strength to deal with anything God places upon your shoulders, or in your path.  Many prayers are being said on your behalf, little one.  God hears, and God is tending to these requests.  Just as He listens to your prayers, as you pray for others, so too, does He hear those that are being said on behalf of you, your family, and your mission.

You are tired, little one.  You must take time to rest, and become renewed in body, mind, and spirit.  Because you are a willing worker in My vineyard, does not mean it must be something that must be so great a burden that you cannot seek time away to become refreshed.  This too, is important.  Do not become overburdened, little one.  You must also take time for yourself so you can return ready, refreshed, and willing to get on with the work and tasks set before you. 

Be at peace, little one, and go about your day knowing you have served Me well.

Ruth Ann:  Thank You, Lord.